Saturday, December 10, 2011

I'm... sorry.....

There are so many reasons why people say the words, "I'm sorry." Sometimes we REALLY mean it. Sometimes the words are something to say because nothing else comes to mind. Sometimes it just feel like you should. 

There is also the sorry that you give to people suffering. Those who have lost a loved one. But do these words EVER seem like enough? No. I had a friend from high school that took his own life. As I was waiting in line to talk to his parents, I tried to think of something worthy enough to say to them. I'm Sorry?????? That was the lamest thing I could think of. So when it was finally my turn, I broke down. I couldn't utter a word. They comforted me. I felt like the lowest human being on the planet. Their child just took his own life- I should be comforting THEM! And here they are comforting me. I then uttered, I'm sorry.  

Finally, the sorry you really mean. The sorry that you give when you KNOW you have hurt someone. It's the time that words probably won't be enough, but there is nothing else in the english language that can convey what you feel at the time. You were wrong. You wish you could take something back. You wish you could take away their hurting. 

I'm sorry. 

Yet for some people, I'm sorry is the hardest thing for them to say. Do you just move on, knowing they probably didn't mean to hurt you? Or should you wait for the words to be spoken? Hard either way. 


In other news, we are still waiting to close on our house. We were told we had to wait until December 30th, because there is a lien on the house. But our realtor told us it could  be a little before then, so we are crossing our fingers that nothing else happens!  We are VERY ready to be in our own house. 

We also FINALY got our wedding pictures! YAY!! You can look at them at


passord: thefarmhouse

Ok i'm going to sign off for now. Hopefully in a week or two we will be in our house and I can post some before pictures! 

Blessings to you, wherever you are! 

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Birthday love

I had such a great day today. I've decided to write it in a list form to make it easier!

  • We were able to go on a super fun trip to Indy
  • I got to see my best friend, and was able to go to her bridal shower
  • I saw some other AXO lovelies at her shower
  • Andrew gave me the sweetest homemade card and homemade gift certificate for a kindle book and pedi
  • I have the greatest mom in the world. seriously. When we were gone.. she:
    • bought me a new shirt and a wall decoration for our new house
    • cleaned the entire apartment, and folded our laundry
    • put up a happy birthday banner ( I walked in and cried. She knows how to make a birthday extra special!)
  • Andrew promised me I could get a dog in 6 months (I won't forget this Andrew)
  • I got to listen to praise tunes on the radio almost the ENTIRE drive home
  • I heard from so many family and friends today
So, it was a pretty great birthday. Each year I realize how blessed I am on this day. 

Frugal birthday

Gooooodmooooorrrning everyone. It's 7:01 here in Indianapolis, but it feels like 8:01 to me (Daylight saving last night... woot!) I decided to drink some coffee, eat a bagel, and watch the news. We decided to change around my birthday plans so I could make it to my best friend's bridal shower. I was going to go to her first one last Sunday, but I was having some weird health problems and decided to stay home. There was NO WAY I was going to miss BOTH showers. I felt bad enough that I was going to have to miss the one on my birthday. It's supposed to be a surprise, so hopefully Elizabeth doesn't read this. If you are rooms, pretend to be surprised! :) 

Andrew and I came down last night (Saturday) and had dinner and stayed in a really disgusting, albeit cheap hotel. (I mean really, it was $40, can you complain?) We wanted to make the trip as cheap as possible and we seem to be succeeding. For my birthday dinner, I looked up nice places that would give coupons for birthdays. The best I found was Houlihan's, and they didn't let us down. I printed off a $15 off entrĂ©e item coupon before we went, and they also gave us a free desert. I decided to splurge and order a martini ($9 didn't seem too bad if we were getting $15 off) and it ended up being 1/2 price! Woot! We ended up paying only $23 for a decent meal. I was impressed, and we will be going back again. (Did I even mention the food? um- Yum!) 

I feel extremely blessed to have a husband that dropped everything to come to Indy with me. I told him it would be my birthday present, since we are poor. This was a pretty great birthday present, if you ask me. 

For un update on the house we are buying: we had a bit of a scare last week. We got a termite inspection done. We had found some damage when we first walked through the house, but knew my dad could fix it fairly cheaply, and for how much we are paying for the house, it's really not a bad thing. The inspector found the damage we saw, but then additional damage in the garage. We hadn't realized there was MORE! So, we decided to take our parents back to the house with us to see it one more time before we decided. The night before we went, Andrew and I both said we wanted to back out. We were scared, nervous, and stressed. Once we saw the house again, though, we both changed our minds. The damage in the garage is incredibly small, and we once again saw what an amazing deal we were getting on this house. Now it's just the waiting game. Since this is a "hud home," we are buying it from the government. Which means it will be a slooowww process at best. That's probably the hardest part for us, since we want to get in as soon as possible, in order for my Grammy to move back into her apartment. 

Here is a photo of the front of the house.

It was built in 2003, so it's still almost brand new inside. (Don't mind the overgrown bushes!) 

Until next time! :)

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Sitting, waiting, wishing

I thought it wouldn't be hard to wait to hear about our bid on a house. 


We should hear tomorrow- and I can hardly wait!! I have so many mixed emotions. If we DO get this house, it has happened so incredibly fast. We'll need to fix some woodwork, buy a washer, dryer, water softener, etc. 

Is this the right house for us? 

What if we don't get it? That just means more houses to see, more to do, more SAVING time! :) 

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Video of our Apt!

The Flip camera I ordered just came in. I'm planning to use it mostly in my classroom, but thought I would try it out today. We are probably moving very soon, so I thought I would document our first place before we move out! Sorry about the incredibly poor quality. I did this in about 30 minutes, and the Flip camera isn't the greatest for this kind of video. 

Domestic Goddess

I love to cook. I love to bake. I love taking and measuring simple ingredients and seeing how mixing it together can make something spectacular. 

I haven't been able to cook and create as much as I would like lately. First it was just that I was too busy, so I made quick and simple dinners. But now, it's the money issue. We are saving to buy a house, and we are trying to use a little money as possible on groceries. But i've been ACHING to cook SOMEthing interesting. So I went on a hunt in my pantry. I decided I had everything I needed for an awesome breakfast meal, and a cake. 

And not just any cake. A black magic chocolate cake with peanut butter buttercream frosting!! 

So I woke up this morning ready to go. I made the cake, created a breakfast for my husband, and finished two loads of laundry. 

Thus my title this beautiful morning- Domestic Goddess. 

Recipe for Black Magic Chocolate Cake:


  • 1 3/4 cups all-purpose flour
  • 2 cups white sugar
  • 3/4 cup unsweetened cocoa powder
  • 2 teaspoons baking soda
  • 1 teaspoon baking powder
  • 1 teaspoon salt
  • 2 eggs
  • 1 cup strong brewed coffee
  • 1 cup buttermilk
  • 1/2 cup vegetable oil
  • 1 teaspoon vanilla extract


  1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees F. Grease and flour two 9 inch round cake pans.
  2. In large bowl combine flour, sugar, cocoa, baking soda, baking powder and salt. Make a well in the center.
  3. Add eggs, coffee, buttermilk (or milk/vinegar mixture), oil and vanilla. Beat for 2 minutes on medium speed. Batter will be thin. Pour into prepared pans.
  4. Bake at 350 degrees F for 40 minutes. Cool for 10 minutes, then remove from pans and finish cooling on a wire rack. 

  • Peanut Butter Buttercream:

  • tablespoons butter/margarine, softened

  • 1/2 cup smooth peanut butter

  • 3/4 cup powered sugar

  • pinch salt

  • 1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract

  • In standing mixer fitted with whisk attachment, beat butter and peanut butter at medium-high speed until smooth, about 20 seconds. Add confectioners' sugar and salt; beat at medium-low speed until most of the sugar is moistened, about 45 seconds. Scrape down bowl and beat at medium speed until mixture is fully combined, about 15 seconds; scrape bowl, add vanilla and heavy cream, and beat at medium speed until incorporated, about 10 seconds, then increase speed to medium-high and beat until light and fluffy, about 4 minutes, scraping down bowl once or twice.

  • tablespoon milk

  • Wednesday, October 19, 2011

    New last name, new blog!

    For as much of a planner as I am, I didn't plan my name change well. Oh, I finished all my paperwork correctly. I sent it in a timely manner. I changed all cards/mailings/Ids. I even changed my email account. Unfortunately, I didn't plan THAT process well. 

    See, when you delete an email account associated with a blog, it automatically deletes the blog along with everything else. So I not only lost my email account, but I also lost my blog, my Google+ account, my address book, and other things I should not bore you with. 

    So here I am, new blog and all. :)   I thought to myself, "Maybe I can keep up with this one better then my first blog!" I then remembered how my life is. Sorry, prooooooobably not happening. I'll update when things are important, or when I actually have time to sit and write. 

    Andrew and I were married on July 23rd, 2011. It was the best day of my life! It has been almost three months, and it has already been quite a fun journey. 

    Currently, my husband Andrew and I are looking for a house. We have been renting my grandmother's condo very (VERY) cheaply. Her husband just passed away, so she is wanting to move back. This happened quite a bit sooner than we were anticipating, as we wanted to pay off our student loans entirely before looking to buy a home, but it is exciting nevertheless. 

    We are making an offer on a home tomorrow. It is a super cute home, but that is all I will say for now. We are trying not to get our hopes up too high. When we find out if we have gotten the house or not, I will fill in on the details. :)