Friday, November 30, 2012

Skinny Butterfinger Pie... and a winner

It was a pretty awful day on Thursday. My kids were amazing as usual, it's just the other educational aspects that always bring my mood down. I came home and my husband talked me down, even though I wanted to eat my pain away. I went and ran three miles and did some weight training, and felt MUCH better.

I ate a small dinner and decided to make something decadent, but within my calorie range. I apologize for not taking pictures of the process.  I was in {dessert} the zone. This took me all of about 5 minutes to make. Incredibly easy and super yummy! I can't remember where I originally saw this recipe, but I think it used Oreos on the bottom and was really fattening. So I lightened it up.

Here is the finished product!

Skinny Butterfinger Pie
8 reduced fat graham crackers, crushed
4 tbs margarine, melted
1 butterfinger candy bar, crushed
1 tbs PB2
2 tbs sugar free chocolate syrup
1 tub fat free cool whip

Mix graham crackers and margarine until combined. Press into pie pan. Mix butterfinger and cool whip. Spread on top of crust. Sprinkle with PB2 and top with chocolate syrup. Stick in the freezer or fridge until set.
(If you don't have PB2, you can go without, but the hubs and I both thought it MADE the pie! Andrew's quote was actually, "This is the bomb!")

Makes 6 servings

Calories     Carbs       Fat        Protein    Sodium
 241            39            7            3              281

And the winner of the Sweet Sweat Bands giveaway is Emily Olson. Congratulations! Sarah from SSB will be in contact with you soon. 

For the rest of you, what is your favorite dessert? I need some new recipes to skinny down!

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Thursday, November 29, 2012

Do you ever feel like you are moving in slow motion?

I started training for my half marathon this week. I'm doing Hal Higdon's plan but doubling a few of the weeks so I can train a little longer until the race. Monday I did Zumba, which I haven't done in months. It was so fun to be back!! 

On Tuesday I was just supposed to run three miles. Easy, right? Not so much. I was looking forward to that run all day, but when I got outside, my legs hurt. They ached almost the whole time. Right when I started feeling better, I was almost back at my house. I'm not sure if it's just soreness or what is going on, but everything below my knees hurt. 

Yesterday I did another zumba class, although with a different instructor. Still loved it. Was glad for another break from running. With a lot of the jumping movements, I noticed my shins were really sore. I need to roll them out some more. 

I am a little worried about following through with the half marathon goal. I'm just so SLOW when I run. I'm not even running- it's more of a slow jog. I don't want to feel like the slowest person to ever do a half marathon. I realize that some people walk them, and I REFUSE to walk, but I don't want people to lap me either! I don't know. Just feeling frustrated today that I've just started training and I'm already feeling like this.

 It doesn't help that the scale isn't moving either. I am the EXACT same weight as I was last week. I did SO well on Thanksgiving and getting back on track after, so I'm not sure what the deal is. I'm just going to keep working as hard as I can and hopefully it will pay off on the scale next week. I'm just impatient when it comes to my weight loss and goals. I want everything NOWNOWNOWNOWNOWNOW. 

Sorry for the negativity, just feeling a little bla this week with my weight loss and exercising goals. 

What do you do when you are feeling BLA? Do you change something up or just keep pushing through?

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Wednesday, November 28, 2012

oh tannenbaum

On Friday we did our annual Christmas tree cutting with my family. It was SUPER cold, so we bundled up and head out. I had 2 layers of pants and 4 shirts, and was still freezing. 

On our way to the tree farm

Once we got to the tree farm, we drove along one of the lanes and parked. My brother and his girlfriend got out, went straight to a tree, and cut it down. They weren't messing around. I was impressed. 
Jake & Jordan

Mom & Dad

Then it was Mom & Dad's turn. This is the only picture I captured of the two of them, which is really sad. Sorry guys! Mom, you looked super cute too.

After they cut down their tree, we picked out ours. 

I don't know why I made this ridiculous pose

I asked my brother to come get a picture- meaning of Drew and me, but he was a dork 


After Drew tried sawing for a little bit, my dad tried to help 

They realized our saw was quite dull, so they traded. 

Me, being super helpful as you can see. 

After we yelled "TIMBERRRR" and it fell down, we needed to trim it a bit since the bottom was awful looking. I was happy because it was a super straight tree, and only had one bare spot that we would put against the wall. More on that later. 

It was too cold for little Lilah, so she napped in the car. 

We loaded all three trees in Drew's truck, paid, and headed out. Andrew kept saying that we loaded them wrong and they would fly out. After about 10 minutes of driving, one almost did. We pulled over to fix them. :) 

Once we got home and put the tree in the stand, it was crooked. Like, very crooked. It looks like it is about to fall over. So we tried repositioning it a few times, but we realized they must have drilled into the tree when it was crooked. So we are stuck with a super crooked tree. I trimmed off the very tallest branch that stuck straight up so you couldn't tell as badly, but it still looks awful. 

We'll just say it has character, right?

We are seriously considering buying a fake tree right after christmas (read- we are cheap) for next year and beyond. Jeffrey keeps biting at it and we feel like it will save us money in the long run. I just love the tradition of cutting it down every year. And the smell! 

Have you gotten your Christmas tree yet? Do you cut it down, get a pre-cut, or use a fake tree?

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Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Black Friday

We are not big Black Friday people. In fact, the only time I've ever gone out shopping on Black Friday, it has been after 11:00am. I've gotten good deals on couches, and some clothes. But last night Andrew talked me into going to Wal-Mart. There was a video game he wanted for Christmas that normally sells for $69.99, but was a special for $15. We went at around 7:15 and he waited in line for his game while I got some grocery shopping done. I had to duck under caution tape more times then I could count, and as it got closer to 8:00 it got crazier. I didn't get much, just some diet pop for Drew and some fruit for me. I also bought myself a foam roller! I was super excited that Drew told me to go get myself one.

Then I checked out and went home to wait for Drew to call me saying he was done. He ended up with 2 of the video games he wanted, and 2 of another video game. He is going to sell them for a profit, which was okay with me. He also snagged a blu-ray of 30 Minutes or Less and Book of Eli. I love The Book of Eli, but wasn't sure about 30 Minutes or Less. 

He called when he was checking out, and I picked him up just in time. It was a pretty good setup and we got out of there quickly. When we got home we made a pizza and watched 30 minutes or less. It wasn't terrible like I expected. While we watched I used my foam roller, and it HURT. I was super sore from my run, and it felt good to roll it out a bit. 

Did you go out on Black Friday? What kind of deals did you snag?

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Monday, November 26, 2012


Some of you may remember seeing the super cute head band I was wearing for my first race. 
This was only the second time I had ever worn it, and I am SUPER impressed. It did not slip at all during my entire race. I actually completely forgot I was wearing it! 

Sarah from Sweet Sweat Bands has agreed to give one lucky reader a FREE head band of their choice! She has SO many choices. The one I received is a paisley print wide headband. I think my next purchase will be a skinny one. I LOVE her skinny sparkly ones!

These are washable and non slip. Sarah can even make custom headbands for sporting teams.  

Not only are these perfect for running and working out, but they are cute enough to wear everyday to work or just to run errands!  

She even makes these little headphone pouches- aren't they adorable?!

Check out Sarah's website here and let me know which headband you would choose for an extra entry into the giveaway.

Giveaway will end on Friday. Spread the word!

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Sunday, November 25, 2012

4 miles

Hi everyone! Has it been hard for you to get back into the swing of healthy eating and working out? I know it has for me. I did REALLY well on Thanksgiving, but haven't been eating the greatest after that. This morning I finally started to feel back to normal. 

I knew I was going to take a rest day after my first 5K, and I did. I was planning on going on a walk yesterday or doing something active, but my body still hurt so I decided another rest day would be okay. Today I woke up early and decided my body was ready for a run. I geared up and set out. First of all, I was SO cold to start! My hands, face, and ears were freezing. About half way into the run I got hot, though. I just wanted to get rid of my fleece I was wearing. I'm not sure how to fix this. Do you just start out super cold and deal with it? I guess I need to try it. 

I did my normal route I'm used to running for my 5K, and was almost home when something sparked in me. I wanted to keep going.  I wanted to keep running until I hit four miles. As I neared my house I hit the three mile mark, and had slowed quite a bit. I turned and took Jeffrey in a large loop around our side roads. I just kept going until I saw that 4.0 on my phone. (this would be SO much easier with garmin (*hint hint mom and drew*)  I was SUPER slow, but I didn't care. 

After I came inside, I stretched a bit and rolled out my legs. They were very sore, and have been since Thanksgiving. I should have iced a bit but didn't. Maybe some compression socks would help too! (another hint)

After a showering I'm feeling good, just a bit sore. I'm going to be starting Hal Higdon's half marathon novice 1 training plan. You can see the pdf here. The half isn't until March 23rd, so I'm going to do a couple of the weeks twice, and allow myself a little leeway with Christmas coming up. I actually enjoying running when it's cold out, although it hasn't been icy/snowy yet. I might have to do more training on the treadmill... barf. 

In other news, I created a Facebook page to go along with the blog! Come like it here! 

Are you back in the swing of things? Have you felt like getting back to eating healthy has been a challenge after Thanksging? 
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After I ran my race on Thanksgiving, Drew and I got breakfast at McDonald's. I ordered a small SF FF vanilla latte, 1 hash brown, and a fruit & yogurt parfait. It was very filling and delicious!

I went home, showered, and got ready for our my family's Thanksgiving. We trade off Thanksgiving and Easter, so this year we were at my side.

My aunt and uncle built what I call a multipurpose room, but others call it the rec room, or cabin, or whatever. It's basically a room for them to host get-togethers, as my family is HUMONGOUS. I wouldn't have it any other way. As soon as I walked in the door Everyone wanted to know how my race went, which made me feel really good. 
Dad & me
 As we ate, I took small portions of everything I wanted. I didn't feel deprived, but It also didn't break my calorie bank, either. I didn't feel overly stuffed, even after eating not very much. I'm sure the late breakfast helped a lot! 
My terrible looking excuse for a pumpkin pie

After we ate, we had the opportunity to Skype with my cousin Brittini, who is currently in the D.R. You can read her blog here. She is an amazing girl! It was SO good to see her and to talk with her, albeit hard as my family is loud. :)  I'm excited for her to come back in December and talk with her more about her experiences. She is talking about doing part of her student teaching there, which would be incredible. 
Chatting with Brittini
 I was able to spend lots of time with family, and with my cousins. As we have gotten older we have more and more in common, and I enjoy them all so much. 

 In front of the pond

When we sat down to pray for our meal, we were all told to grab a foam leaf that was on our plate and write something we were thankful for on it. They had little trees up that we all pinned our leaves on. I wrote that I was thankful for my husband and my family. It was amazing the number of leaves on the tree that read "family." I am so thankful for each and every one of my family. 

I hope you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving! What are you most thankful for?

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Friday, November 23, 2012

My first Race

Yesterday was the day I was working towards each time I ran my training runs in the C25K program. The annual Turkey Stampede is always a huge event in Elkhart, and this year it was my goal to participate.  

 I woke up bright at early, dressed in the outfit I set out the night before, and set out for the race. 

On the way over, my husband told me many reasons why he was thankful for me. He told me how proud he was of me that I had set a goal, and was completing it that day. It was a great way to calm my nerves a bit and think of how thankful I am to have him, and to be able to run. 

Once we got to the race site, we were VERY early, and hardly anyone was there. That was my first lesson. When they tell you to be early, they do not mean you have to be over an hour early. :-/ We stayed in the  building where I got my bib and shirt the night before because it had heat. I saw the rude guy from the day before, but I just smilied and knew it wasn't going to ruin my day. 

After we waited for what seemed like an eternity, it was finally almost time to start the 10k. I realized I needed to use the restroom, so we ran over to wait in the SUPER long lines for the porta potty. I got through just in time for the 5K to start. 

I ran into my Pastor and his family getting ready to run, so that was really nice to see them right before we started running. I learned that He had locked the keys in the car so he wasn't going to run in order to try and find a locksmith. On Thanksgiving. Yikes! The race started, and we held back a bit because of the huge amount of people starting at the same time. Once I crossed the starting line, I pressed the timer on my fitbit and Mapmyrun app on my phone, and started running. 

I had looked up the race paths beforehand, and knew there was one hill, but I didn't realize it wasn't even a half mile in. I was trying to keep my pace, and felt like I was dying! But once we got through the hill and were on a flat road again, I felt fine.  

People were passing me left and right and I tried not to focus on them. I knew I would pass many more people at the finish, and I was just determined to keep my own pace and worry about myself. I kept my music loud and focused on my breathing. I was surprised at how many children were running! Quite a few sprinted past me, and then I would pass them again when they were walking. As I passed mile marker one, I was surprised at how many walkers I saw. My phone told me my average pace, and I was happy with it. As I passed mile marker 2, I was at the exact same pace! I was pretty proud of that, as I am usually all over the place. I passed even more walkers at this point, which made me wish (for about 2 seconds)I could walk. I shook my head and told myself that the end will be SO worth it. I have never walked during my training unless it told me to walk, and I sure wasn't going to give up now. I still felt good, It was just my mind playing with me. 

I could tell when we were getting close to the finish, as we took the same route back to the park. I saw the hill coming up and I started picking up the pace. I  FLEW down that hill, and tried to keep that fast pace going back to the finish line. I started seeing people cheering, and I decided not to look for my husband, but to just. keep. running. I had tunnel vision for that finish line. I never did see the mile 3 marker, I was focused on my end goal. I crossed the line and felt amazing. I fumbled around trying to end my timers, and probably sounded like I was hyperventilating to the people around me. I tried to talk to a friend of mine I ran into while my husband found me. 
He told me that he and my pastor had been yelling and waving for me to look at them. I guess I was very focused!  I had forgotten to remind him to take a picture of me running, be he remembered anyway! You can see my pastor's arm in this picture trying to get my attention. I look like I'm dying! But my favorite part of this picture is the little boy dressed like an indian!!! It is hilarious!! 

My average pace was 10:54, my fastest pace being 6:08 (when I was sprinting to finish). I finished in just over 33 minutes, which I was happy with. I would LOVE to be able to run one in under 30 minutes, so that will be my next goal besides training for the mini. 
As I crossed the finish line, I received a little blue participation ribbon. I know it's not much, but I worked hard for that ribbon. I never quit. I accomplished my goal, even when I was hurting or wanted to quit. I didn't quit. 

I did it. 

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Thursday, November 22, 2012

The day has finally come

The day is here! As I'm heading over to Elkhart for my very first 5k, I can't help but to think of how very thankful I am. When we got in the car, Drew told me how proud of me he is that Made a goal for myself and am accomplishing it today. What a great way to get pumped up for the race.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

I've been caught

Well, the time has come when my coworkers and friends discover my blog. I knew it would happen sometime, but never expected it this soon! 

I came home from school yesterday really anxious and nervous out about my colleagues seeing my blog, but it has already turned into something positive. A great friend and mother of one of my students even brought a scrapbook of her weight loss journey to show me. Another friend told me we have so much in common, and that I've inspired her. What an amazing thing to share with another person. Something so personal, yet so similar to others. I said before that I hope this will be a blog that not only will keep me accountable, but help to inspire others. 

I mentioned in this post that I was terrified of people finding this blog for fear of them judging me. But it's happened, and I can't stop it. I've never wanted to stop it. Mostly it's just the fear of what people could think or say, but I know now that I need to just accept the unknown. This IS uncharted territory for me, so I may be stumbling in the dark as I go, but at least I'm headed in the right direction. 

Tomorrow is the day I've been training for! My first 5K!! I am very excited. I went to pick up my shirt and bib today, and was a little early. I had a pretty rude volunteer help me, which was a bit of a let down. I went and got my bib from the correct table, and the woman told me to walk over to get my shirt from another man. The guy just stared at me, so I said, "Hi! The woman over there told me to come get my shirt here." The guy just keeps staring at me, and finally says, "okay?" I had no idea what he wanted me to do! So I asked what I should do. I kid you not, he says,"What? Am I just supposed to read your mind for what size you wear?" What a JERK! Then I got angry, and told him I was sorry, but I thought he would look it up or something. This guy just doesn't give up, and says,"I could look it up, but it's a lot easier if you just tell me." So I give him a HUGE smile and say, "Oh, I'm SO sorry sir. I had no idea what you were looking for as you wouldn't tell me. I would like a large." After he gave me the shirt I gave him the biggest smile again and a thank you. How hard is it to have a little kindness? Did he really expect ME to just read HIS mind and know what he was thinking? 

When I was done getting my bib, I met my husband and sister in law for dinner. Then I came home, set out my "running man" and now I'm just blogging a bit before heading to bed. 

Even though my excitement went down quite a bit after my exchange at the race site, I'm definitely feeling ready for the race. I do not have a time goal for myself, I just want to finish. But I would be SUPER happy if my time was under 35 minutes. 

Have you ever run a 5K? What was your time?

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Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Thanksgiving linkup

I am linking up with Holly today to talk about Thanksgiving traditions. This is my first Vlog ever so I apologize about the poor quality, my nervousness, and my dog among other things. 


1. What do you look forward to more: the food, football or parades?
2. What is your favorite non-traditional Thanksgiving Day dish?
3. After dinner, is it football or a nap?
4. Do you watch the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade? Which is your favorite float?
5. Where do you go to celebrate and eat your big meal? Who is there (family, friends)?
6. What is your favorite turkey day dessert?

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Monday, November 19, 2012

Looking back and moving forward

On Saturday Deb from The Farmhouse Weddings posted on Facebook that she was reminiscing from where it all begain. Our wedding was the very first she had on her property. She posted the video our photographers made for our wedding. As I watched it, tears streamed down my face. Not because I was reminiscing on our amazing love, but because of something else entirely.   

I've watched this video countless times in the year and a half we have been married, but I had never looked at it like I did on Saturday. I remember waking up that morning and feeling so great about myself. I felt good, I was marrying the love of my life, and all my friends and family in one place? It was heavenly. A lot of people say their wedding is the best day of their lives, but mine really was. 

So why was I sad? Well, before the wedding, I started at around 200 lbs. I got down to about 167 or so for my wedding day, in an entirely unhealthy way(Dukan Diet). After our wedding day, I ate everything in sight during our honeymoon, and gained back all the weight in a matter of months. I couldn't bear to weigh myself before my best friend's wedding, but I'm sure I weighed well over 200lbs at the time. Her wedding was on December 17th, so this was about 5 months later. 

Before the wedding, trying to help position the veil 
Bridesmaids with the groom
Bridesmaids with the gorgeous bride

Doesn't even look like the same person, does it? I had to have my dress let out so I could fit into it, a week before the wedding. I kept telling myself I would lose weight, but it never happened. I was so upset with myself that entire weekend. How could I look like that to be the Matron of honor in my best friend's wedding? 

After her wedding weekend, I went on another diet. Very unhealthy again, and lost 10 or 15 lbs. Gave up. Gained more back. Finally, I had a break through moment when I got on the scale and saw I was 215.8 lbs.

As I sat with tears streaming down my face with sadness, a small voice started reminding me of things. It reminded me that I've run the farthest I've ever run before this week. It reminded me that I am training for my first 5k ever. It reminded me that I am committed to doing a half marathon. It reminded me that I've lost 20 lbs. It reminded me that I love myself, and that I need to love my journey. 

I'm done being upset. I'm done being sad. I'm done with the self loathing. 

I'm done looking back with negativity. I'm ready to move forward. 

Now, a simple question for you my friends. Are you?

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Saturday, November 17, 2012

I've gone crazy.

Well, just half crazy. I'm signing up for a half marathon.

That word makes me want to puke. Marathon. Ugh. 13.1 miles. 13.1 MILES PEOPLE!! I am scared to death. What made me think I could go from a 5K to a half marathon? I have no idea. I was home sick on Thursday and saw this half marathon challenge post on fitcamp's blog and I decided I was going to go for it. 

I searched around for different races. I toyed a bit with begging my husband to fly to disney with me for the Disney Princess half, but my brain started working again so I threw that idea out. We don't have the money for that, even though it would be a blast. The best time for me and closest to our area is the Notre Dame's Holy Half. 

Now, I'll let you in on a little secret. I LOATHE NOTRE DAME. Ever since I was little, I've always disliked ND and the campus, fans, and the entire school. So, that was hard for me to commit to. But, it's for a good cause, and a half is a half. 

I've heard good things about Hal Higdon's running plan, so that is what I plan to follow. I like how all the long runs are on weekends, which is great for my busy schedule. I'm thinking my dog probably won't be able to run the longer distances with me, so maybe I can just take him during the week. Andrew's grandmother lives in a neighborhood close to us, and when I run a full 5K, I pass by her house right in the middle. I'm thinking I will train to go by her house around half way on my runs, and maybe put a water bottle in her mailbox. I'm not a fan of holding a water bottle while I run, so we will have to see how that works out. I might just be running in the gym too because the snow will be coming soon! 

So now it's time for me to get back to focusing on my first 5K on Thursday. I'm ready to ROCK this thing! I'm still a little nervous, but more excited. I have 2 more practice runs before Thanksgiving, and my outfit is already planned out in my head! :) Only after the 5K will I allow myself to start planning for the half. 

Just wanted to say thank you to everyone who reads my blog! You are all my motivation to keep going and to stay accountable. Really, you have no idea how much it means to me that you are here and reading about my little ol' self! 

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